But along with the ideas and the building, I have a deep desire to own my own business. I always have. It is as deep seated in me as developing ideas and inventing are. The problem is in walking all this out with God. He didn’t design me to erect some monument to my own genious and ingenuity, but rather to show his glory in business and ideas through me. I am learning very hard lessons about what it means to walk this out with God.

And right now the lesson is being back at work, the 9-5 or in this case 7-5:30 grind. I really enjoy my work, always have and feel really blessed to make the income that I do. The problem is that I seem to be really dreading going to work and really only look forward to the weekend….. only! I don’t really think that is what God had in mind about the abundant life and all.  If the abundant life is Fri-Sun, as I work four/ten hour days, then I feel ripped off. I’m pretty sure that is not what God intended.

So God help me to cherish and revel in each and every day as your gift to me.

But wait (as the cheesy ad guys say) there is more. I don’t really enjoy most weekends either and that really stinks. I may be in serious trouble here. And I even spend most Fridays working on building my own business, which (read above) is supposed to be my dream. Ok, so I have been depressed for the better part of a year, but this is downright ridiculous. the abundant life is right in front of me and I can’t even get excited about it.

This must change, Lord. God give me passion for you

Julia Gatta describes impatience, discouragement, and despair as the “noonday demons” most apt to beset the seasoned traveler.

I have been impatient, I have been discouraged and I have despaired.  Of these things I repent and vow to move forward. I want the path that leads to your heart, Lord.  That leads to the abundant life that is only found in you.

Bill